Adam's song
never thought I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest, who'd have known?
I traced the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all
I took my time, I hurried up
The choice was mine, I didn't think enough
I'm too depressed to go on
You'll be sorry when I'm gone
I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over, we'd survived
I couldn't wait 'til I got home
To pass the time in my room alone
I never thought I'd die alone
Another six months, I'll be unknown
Give all my things to all my friends
You'll never step foot in my room again
You'll close it off, board it up
Remember the time that I spilled the cup
Of apple juice in the hall
Please tell mom this is not her fault
I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over, we'd survived
I couldn't wait 'til I got home
To pass the time in my room alone
I never conquered, rarely came
Tomorrow holds such better days
Days when I can still feel alive
When I can't wait to get outside
The world is wide, the time goes by
The tour is over, I've survived
I can't wait 'til I get home
To pass the time in my room alone
Stay together for the kids
Its hard to wake up
When the shades have been pulled shut
This house is haunted
It's so pathetic
It makes no sense at all
I'm ripe with things to say
the words rot and fall away
If a stupid poem could fix this home, I'd read it every day
So here's your holiday
hope you enjoy it this time
you gave it all away
It was mine
So when your dead and gone
Will you remember this night
Twenty years now lost
It's not right
The anger hurts my ears
Been running strong for seven years
Rather then fix the problem
They never solve them
It makes no sense at all
I see them everyday
We get along so why can't they?
If this is what he wants
And its what she wants
Then whys there so much pain?
So here's your holiday
Hope you enjoy it this time
You gave it all away
It was mine
So when your dead and gone
Will you remember this night
Twenty years now lost
It's not right
So here's your holiday
Hope you enjoy it this time
You gave it all away
It was mine
So when your dead and gone
Will you remember this night
Twenty years now lost
It's not right
Current Mood:  discontent |
Today I've felt hopeless for no reason. the past few days have been great but i've been depressed for somereasons. Well i'm failing english @ 49% and math @ 40%. Math is my fault, well english is aswell, I didnt had in that one essay that lowered me a lot. I'm going to try a lot harder with school, i have no hope to go to UBC, so i'll just have my hopes on Grant MacEwan, UCFV or a GECEP in Montreal. I went to youthquest last night, Jess was telling me about someone who was interest in me last night, no offense but the person gives me the creeps..I just get a bad vibe from that person.Hm..Dan phoned me last week, that made me really happy and upset. I brought up the fact I wanted him to badly come to my grad at the time we last talked, he took it as me asking him to come. In a way I was. If he does come, that'll be interesting.
Friday I got my tounge pierced, i've been told it looks so good,hot..that i'm stupid,waste of money. Whatever, I liked it. Yea thats in the past tense, at the moment i cant stand it..constant annoying pain. I was told I'd want to take it out by day 3 though. I hope it goes down within the next few weeks.OH ya..friday was the last day I had at Save-on-foods. I'm so scared that I wont have any money, because sunday my aunt told me not to work. I need to get another job :(
Sunday it was Denise's birthday. She's like a mom to me..Dustin phoned me to ask if I wanted to go for his moms birthday at his aunts. I had a great time, i love that family. I don't hang out with Dustin and Tyler as much at lunch anymore..it feels like im distancing myself from my friends. Well im spending more time with them as a family,im going to be at Dustin'Tylers for christmas eve :)
I dont know what else to put..I'm kinda upset over some things;hence, me starting to write in this. I might start writing in this every few days or if a huge event happens. Someone has been on my mind: I know they shouldn't. It's funny how things work out so well than they just stop. God I hope things work out.Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Guernica by Brand New |
Well to start off my entry, I've done absolutely nothing today. I should start on my french essay since it's due by the end of the day. Oh well, no sleep for me :) Hm..Thursday, im being raped by Jenn and someone else by getting waxed..Friday, Kenna is having a party,I might drop by. Saturday im having someone over, im kinda looking forward to it =). Um..Sunday Im praying all day..I swear..well today was a pointless day. Im off to bed :)Current Mood:  happy Current Music: Losing my religion |
Well..Deborah is getting mad at me because I wouldn't write in my livejournal. I procastinate..I'm sorry. Today I was discussing with some friends how i should move to alberta..ergh..fucking aunt.."not too much longer on" wtf..being on line for how long I am does not affect my life at all..I hang out with friends,I work. Ill be going to school next week. why does it fucking bother her..I cant wait til I move out, she takes advantage of me and freaks at me when I make a mistake or dont go to her standards..now i was writing about alberta..but she pissed me off so much...today started off so good now im all pissed off. Joel asked me to do something but I cant, because I cant get a ride out. It really sucks how im not interested in many people from around the area..I cant wait to leave this fricken province.(I really mean I want things to work out here, maybe find some guy or chick....get a raise, have my own place and be financially stable because i love it here in BC.but if it'll be easier, i am so moving to Alberta..Im really lazy to edit my grammarical errors on this aswellCurrent Mood:  aggravated Current Music: My Happy Ending-Avril Lavigne |
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